Gin and Failure (Apps. Ask)
Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2023 11:53 pm
If there were a point of no return, Kress would have passed it sometime between eleven and two in the morning. Her night began with a couple drinks in a ritzy little Euphornis casino, migrated to a dive bar, and after a bottle of something brewed in someone else’s basement she bought out of the trunk of someone’s speeder in the slums, it all went fuzzy. Ringed fingers tapped the bottleneck with her back pressed flat against the cold, waterless bath tub, laying in full clothing with a busted lip.
Her wrist buzzed, datawatch lighting up and casting a hologram with an alarm that read, “Sleep so you can train in the morning, loser.” She set it earlier that week after a particularly hard look at her progress compared to other sith in the temple. Groaning, Kress figured sober her knew what she was talking about and crawled out of the tub onto unsteady feet to catch a glimpse of her roughed up face in the mirror. Puffed lip with a cut, and a nick on her chin, eyes that were heavy with the weight of all the alcohol in her system. She was a proper hot mess again.
A hot mess minus one particularly important, red gem earring.
Panic shot from the base of her feet to the top of her scalp as her hands frantically searched herself for the missing jewel.
“Frack, frack, FRACK! Silas is going to actually bury me. Where is it?!” The drunken assassin started fretting over what that ill-tempered sith lord would do to her if he found out she lost the soul gem, force enhancing, sith sorcery thingamajiggy that he gifted her to help with that pain in the butt force block of hers. The thing wasn’t just rare and probably difficult to create, but it was valuable, and now it was missing from her ear!
“Alright…retrace your steps, Kress, you idiot moron.”
Retracing her steps was a waste of time. Whatever happened to that stone, the memory of it was lost on a tide of gin and failure. Such a priceless thing, a gem she needed if she was going to get anywhere training in the force without the use of glitterstim, and it was lost in a city the span of an entire planet! “Okay Kress…Maybe it’s in the apartment! It’s a stone charged with force energy or whatever, right? Maybe you can sense it if it’s close enough…” She was talking to herself again, something she did when there was no one else around to calm her nerves. If that earring was anywhere in the vicinity then she should be able to sense its energy through the force.
{ SENSE LVL2 APP -begin- }
Inked lashes shut over reddened hazels and Kress tried to imagine where the lost crystal would be in her apartment, thinking ‘Feeeeel the force. Think only about the force. Come ooooooooon force! Find the earring!’ only for the dripping faucet to beat like a hammer in her brain. The air conditioner blowing down her next from the vent overhead chilled her skin. There was a small hole forming in her sock and she could feel it. She needed something in her stomach or she might hurl…Concentration was lost and whatever imagery she’d formed was too , if she even had an inkling of how to do this to begin with. Kressara was half drunk, sick on strong liquor, and her mouth hurt. Of course she wouldn’t be able to focus! Turning the sink nozzle to feel the cold water on her hands, Kress splashed her face. She needed to connect to the force, but it was so foreign. It didn’t feel like anything to her, not like the chill of air on wet hands, or her aching stomach. She was cut off from it and occasionally that veil lifted to reveal a truly beautiful, living force that made the universe tick, just out of sight and out of mind enough for most to miss it. With so few encounters under her belt that she could understand, this was beyond difficult. How could others focus on something so intangible and ethereal without their minds getting in the way?
She took a deep breath, stepping away from the basin before closing her eyes once more. Despite her pickled greymatter wanting to throw a billion thoughts into the forefront of her mind the minute she decided to focus on actually sensing the force, Kressara rehearsed out loud to herself what she recalled from her first attempt looking at the world through its influence. “It’s alive, flowing around and through all things…it’s there, even if you’re distracted, even if you don’t feel it like everyone else…”
Plucking a pair of earbuds from her patchy, studded jean vest, Kress plugged her ears and connected them to her datawatch, cranking up her music as loud as she could stand it when finally it hit her. Music. She could relate her inability to sense the force to music more than she realized before. Drums, guitars, synth, vocals, all of it was in the forefront of the song to the point that only a bass guitarist would pick out the bassline thrumming in the background. Life was a multitude of different parts all written to compose one massive song, and the force was like that illusive harmony lost behind the melody and the beat. As cheesy as it sounded, it finally clicked.
“Follow that harmony.” Kress told herself and shoved her hands into her pockets, eyes still closed. She started internally, listening to the spaces between heartbeats that she once believed to be silence when her mind’s ears picked up on the slightest twinkling. Flexing her fingers, rather than testing the strength of her grip and the power behind trained hands, she paid attention to the feeling of something unseen reacting to her movements like manipulating water in her pockets, her own presence in the universe. The smell of a flowering plant hanging by the window caught her mind, but instead of allowing it to distract her, she looked without her eyes to see vibrations in the force running through its petals and stems with the slow flow of chlorophyll, begging for the planet to spin on its axis a little faster and bring out the sun.
There was something beneath her bed, something small and the force bringing it to the front of her mental perception told her it held life. Could it be the sith sorcery made earring? Smiling to herself, Kressara felt her way through the apartment without opening her eyes and knelt down before the bed, reaching out for the source of the small energy source. Prickly legs brushed her fingers and wriggled wildly, sending the blitzed sith leaping to her feet and eyes shooting open to see a decent sized spider scuttling off under a dresser. “Not the earring!” She shuddered, wiping her hand obsessively against her pants leg.
Deciding to keep her eyes open, Kressara reached out through the force like she had before, picking out traces of an ancient energy hiding beneath the rest of the world’s distractions. It was diminished, but she sensed something akin to Silas’s energy. She couldn’t entirely describe it if you asked her, but it just felt like a piece of him had once been in her room, before she left for the night. The sense trailed out beyond the front door, leading her into the hallway and down a flight of stairs on wobbly legs, into the lobby where another tenant tried to speak to the force focused sith.
“Not now, Mrs. Holt…I’m following my earring.” Kress blurted, earning a confused look from the woman as she stumbled out the building and into the street.
The earring left a vibrant trail of force energy, like perfume lingering in the air long after the one who wore it walked away. Even with eyes open, ears assaulted by high volume music, and the sticky humidity of the night clinging to her bare arms, Kress could sense the places where that sorcerous little gem brushed against other energies in the force. She followed it as quickly as she could, marveling in the louder, larger, easier to feel sensations of people and their auras walking past so much that she nearly lost her focus on the earring. How crazy she must have looked, smiling at strangers like they were new, mystical beings while hurriedly rushing through the streets smelling like alcohol. Even her own excitement couldn’t stop her, despite being overjoyed that she was finally making progress. Kressara ignored it all and kept after that signature until at last vibrations of the force led her to the open trunk of an illegal booze vender. On his ear, her missing earring. Its unmistakable draw on the force was like a cold, bright spot in the hot, dark street to her soul, clashing with the duller, muddied presence of the man who’s stretched old earlobe harbored the stone.
{ SENSE LVL2 -WC 1,050- -end- }
Her wrist buzzed, datawatch lighting up and casting a hologram with an alarm that read, “Sleep so you can train in the morning, loser.” She set it earlier that week after a particularly hard look at her progress compared to other sith in the temple. Groaning, Kress figured sober her knew what she was talking about and crawled out of the tub onto unsteady feet to catch a glimpse of her roughed up face in the mirror. Puffed lip with a cut, and a nick on her chin, eyes that were heavy with the weight of all the alcohol in her system. She was a proper hot mess again.
A hot mess minus one particularly important, red gem earring.
Panic shot from the base of her feet to the top of her scalp as her hands frantically searched herself for the missing jewel.
“Frack, frack, FRACK! Silas is going to actually bury me. Where is it?!” The drunken assassin started fretting over what that ill-tempered sith lord would do to her if he found out she lost the soul gem, force enhancing, sith sorcery thingamajiggy that he gifted her to help with that pain in the butt force block of hers. The thing wasn’t just rare and probably difficult to create, but it was valuable, and now it was missing from her ear!
“Alright…retrace your steps, Kress, you idiot moron.”
Retracing her steps was a waste of time. Whatever happened to that stone, the memory of it was lost on a tide of gin and failure. Such a priceless thing, a gem she needed if she was going to get anywhere training in the force without the use of glitterstim, and it was lost in a city the span of an entire planet! “Okay Kress…Maybe it’s in the apartment! It’s a stone charged with force energy or whatever, right? Maybe you can sense it if it’s close enough…” She was talking to herself again, something she did when there was no one else around to calm her nerves. If that earring was anywhere in the vicinity then she should be able to sense its energy through the force.
{ SENSE LVL2 APP -begin- }
Inked lashes shut over reddened hazels and Kress tried to imagine where the lost crystal would be in her apartment, thinking ‘Feeeeel the force. Think only about the force. Come ooooooooon force! Find the earring!’ only for the dripping faucet to beat like a hammer in her brain. The air conditioner blowing down her next from the vent overhead chilled her skin. There was a small hole forming in her sock and she could feel it. She needed something in her stomach or she might hurl…Concentration was lost and whatever imagery she’d formed was too , if she even had an inkling of how to do this to begin with. Kressara was half drunk, sick on strong liquor, and her mouth hurt. Of course she wouldn’t be able to focus! Turning the sink nozzle to feel the cold water on her hands, Kress splashed her face. She needed to connect to the force, but it was so foreign. It didn’t feel like anything to her, not like the chill of air on wet hands, or her aching stomach. She was cut off from it and occasionally that veil lifted to reveal a truly beautiful, living force that made the universe tick, just out of sight and out of mind enough for most to miss it. With so few encounters under her belt that she could understand, this was beyond difficult. How could others focus on something so intangible and ethereal without their minds getting in the way?
She took a deep breath, stepping away from the basin before closing her eyes once more. Despite her pickled greymatter wanting to throw a billion thoughts into the forefront of her mind the minute she decided to focus on actually sensing the force, Kressara rehearsed out loud to herself what she recalled from her first attempt looking at the world through its influence. “It’s alive, flowing around and through all things…it’s there, even if you’re distracted, even if you don’t feel it like everyone else…”
Plucking a pair of earbuds from her patchy, studded jean vest, Kress plugged her ears and connected them to her datawatch, cranking up her music as loud as she could stand it when finally it hit her. Music. She could relate her inability to sense the force to music more than she realized before. Drums, guitars, synth, vocals, all of it was in the forefront of the song to the point that only a bass guitarist would pick out the bassline thrumming in the background. Life was a multitude of different parts all written to compose one massive song, and the force was like that illusive harmony lost behind the melody and the beat. As cheesy as it sounded, it finally clicked.
“Follow that harmony.” Kress told herself and shoved her hands into her pockets, eyes still closed. She started internally, listening to the spaces between heartbeats that she once believed to be silence when her mind’s ears picked up on the slightest twinkling. Flexing her fingers, rather than testing the strength of her grip and the power behind trained hands, she paid attention to the feeling of something unseen reacting to her movements like manipulating water in her pockets, her own presence in the universe. The smell of a flowering plant hanging by the window caught her mind, but instead of allowing it to distract her, she looked without her eyes to see vibrations in the force running through its petals and stems with the slow flow of chlorophyll, begging for the planet to spin on its axis a little faster and bring out the sun.
There was something beneath her bed, something small and the force bringing it to the front of her mental perception told her it held life. Could it be the sith sorcery made earring? Smiling to herself, Kressara felt her way through the apartment without opening her eyes and knelt down before the bed, reaching out for the source of the small energy source. Prickly legs brushed her fingers and wriggled wildly, sending the blitzed sith leaping to her feet and eyes shooting open to see a decent sized spider scuttling off under a dresser. “Not the earring!” She shuddered, wiping her hand obsessively against her pants leg.
Deciding to keep her eyes open, Kressara reached out through the force like she had before, picking out traces of an ancient energy hiding beneath the rest of the world’s distractions. It was diminished, but she sensed something akin to Silas’s energy. She couldn’t entirely describe it if you asked her, but it just felt like a piece of him had once been in her room, before she left for the night. The sense trailed out beyond the front door, leading her into the hallway and down a flight of stairs on wobbly legs, into the lobby where another tenant tried to speak to the force focused sith.
“Not now, Mrs. Holt…I’m following my earring.” Kress blurted, earning a confused look from the woman as she stumbled out the building and into the street.
The earring left a vibrant trail of force energy, like perfume lingering in the air long after the one who wore it walked away. Even with eyes open, ears assaulted by high volume music, and the sticky humidity of the night clinging to her bare arms, Kress could sense the places where that sorcerous little gem brushed against other energies in the force. She followed it as quickly as she could, marveling in the louder, larger, easier to feel sensations of people and their auras walking past so much that she nearly lost her focus on the earring. How crazy she must have looked, smiling at strangers like they were new, mystical beings while hurriedly rushing through the streets smelling like alcohol. Even her own excitement couldn’t stop her, despite being overjoyed that she was finally making progress. Kressara ignored it all and kept after that signature until at last vibrations of the force led her to the open trunk of an illegal booze vender. On his ear, her missing earring. Its unmistakable draw on the force was like a cold, bright spot in the hot, dark street to her soul, clashing with the duller, muddied presence of the man who’s stretched old earlobe harbored the stone.
{ SENSE LVL2 -WC 1,050- -end- }